Alright, so finally I am updating my journal, yay! lol Sorry I haven't updated in so long or posted any new artwork, but I've just been really busy working on this 2-book series which I may have published later on. If anyone is interested in reading the first book you may find it here:

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As for book two I am still working on, and as for how I am doing, I've had quite a few rough months which also explains a little of why I haven't posted anything up lately. Yes, I am still heartbroken over what happened to me a few months ago with falling in love, and then having to lose her, but I have found a wonderful mate, and he is helping me move on from her even though it's still a bit hard for me to have lost her. Note to all of you who are in a hurry to fall in love: don't be! Love can be a good thing, but when it cannot be fed it turns into this horrible pain, physical pain that eats at your heart and soul. I know this from experience.

Anyways, I shall try to post some artwork up very soon, and also check out my book! lol, but yeah, hope you like it if you do read it, and I wanna thank you all for sticking with me even when I'm going through all this. You're all wonderful friends, and I love you all! ^.=.^ Bye!

You guessed it: love. But anyways, yeah, I believe I'm in love, problem is the feeling is not returned. I haven't felt this way in quite some time, since about two years ago to be certain. I see the person in my dreams, can't stop thinking about them, am constantly trying to talk to the person, and idk I just can't stop thinking about them. I love this feeling, I have missed it to be honest, but I can't take this aching throughout my body everytime the person comes into my mind, this wanting, NEEDING feeling for the person, and yet I feel hopelessness, complete hopelessness, because I know it'll never happen.

This is what has been affecting my art lately; it's hard to draw when you can't stop thinking about someone, and knowing you'll never be with the person affects your ability to concentrate or draw, especially when tears keep dripping onto the paper you are trying to draw on. Yes, very disturbing heh, but yeah, that's the reason I've been so inactive lately, and I thought I owed you all an explanation so yeah. There's actually quite a bit more to this, but I rather not get into it on a public journal which everyone has access to, but that basically sums it up.

I will get another drawing in soon, I promise you all that, just plz bare with me here, I'm going through a really tough time right now and I need as much support as I can get. Thank you all.

Okay, so my mood has gotten better and I have began to draw once more. You shall probably see more of my art being uploaded now as I am feeling much better. Thank you all for your patience in waiting for me to get back in the mood *hugs* ^.=.^

Note: Ignore the "anguish" mood as I cannot change it for some reason. I am in a very good mood!

What would you do if.....

1. I died:
2. I kissed you:
3. I lived next door to you:
4. I started smoking:
5. I stole something:
6. I was hospitalized:
7. I ran away from home:
8. I got into a fight and you weren't there?


WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:

9. Personality:
10. Eyes:
11. Hair:
12. Family:
(short - long brown hair,hazel eyes)

WOULD YOU:

13. Be my friend?
14. Keep a secret if I told you one?
15. Hold my hand?
16. Take a bullet for me?
17. Keep in touch?
18. Try and solve my problems?
19. Love me?
20. Date me?
21. Sing with me?


HAVE YOU EVER:

22. Lied to make me feel better?
23. Wanted to kiss me?
24. Wanted to kill me?
25. Broke my heart?
26. Kept something important from me?
27. Thought I was unbearably annoying?

MORE:

28. Who are you?
29. Are we friends?
30. When and how did we meet?
31. Describe me in one word:
32. What was your first impression?
33. Do you still think that way about me now?
34. What reminds you of me?
35. If you could give me anything what would it be?
36. How well do you know me?
37. When's the last time you saw me?
38. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
39. What song do you think would describe me best?
40. Are you gonna put this on yours to see what I say about you?

Alright so lately I haven't been uploading so many pics and it has to do with several reasons and things that have been happening to me lately. I promise you all I shall try to have a pic up very soon, but I'm really going through alot right now which includes work, writing, a friend just moved in, and also love problems, so as you can see I'm kind of in a mess, but I shall try to have a pic up very soon. Thank you all for understanding, I am really very sorry.